Do you ever feel like your on the cusp of something enormous? All your energy is going towards balancing yourself on the tightrope of your life, and the only thing keeping you from relaxing and stepping off is making a decision. Do you want to step off on the left or the right? That is how I have been feeling lately. It is strange, usually I jump head first into whatever pops into my mind. But it's been different recently, I feel like I'm finally experiencing what so many of my friends have, fear of change. Fear of the unknown, fear that what comes next will be worst than what came before.
The bizarre aspect of this fear, for me, is that I simultaneously have a fear of being stagnant. I can't picture my life in a permanent state, I am constantly thinking of the next move, the next change, the next adventure. The problem then becomes, how can I breath change and simultaneously be afraid of it?
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Democratic Presidential Nominee Barack Obama
It is official, history's most groundbreaking presidential primary is over and we have a nominee. And I have to say I'm really proud, proud of the country and the democratic party.
In college I was a resident assistant in the dorms, part of our training covered inclusion. During one particular exercise we were asked which we thought was most likely to happen in our lifetime, a woman, black man, guy man, or asian man becoming president. I put together a list, but in my head I thought, I will never see any of these things happen. And in the very next election I was proven how wrong I could be. I realized that my attitude contributes to the notion that these things can't happen. All you need is one person (in this case 2) two go forth and try. Just try, and you never know what can happen.
In college I was a resident assistant in the dorms, part of our training covered inclusion. During one particular exercise we were asked which we thought was most likely to happen in our lifetime, a woman, black man, guy man, or asian man becoming president. I put together a list, but in my head I thought, I will never see any of these things happen. And in the very next election I was proven how wrong I could be. I realized that my attitude contributes to the notion that these things can't happen. All you need is one person (in this case 2) two go forth and try. Just try, and you never know what can happen.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
"It's not surprising then they get bitter," he said. "They cling to guns or religion or antipathy to people who aren't like them or anti-immigrant sentiment or anti-trade sentiment as a way to explain their frustrations." - Barack Obama (Allison Keyes, NPR)
Presidential hopeful Barack Obama has managed to shoot himself in the foot during a pivotal point in his campaign. Currently the democratic party has no clear leader in the race to the presidency. And, with two important primaries coming up, Obama has made a verbal blunder that may cost him the nomination. His mistake not only exposes his lack of experience in politics, but also sheds new light on this poster boy for Change. Could Barack Obama be an elitist?
My answer, I sure hope so. To be honest, when it comes to this Democratic primary you can count my vote as "no preference." But when I read this story about Obama, I have to admit I was slightly swayed, in his favor. Why, you may ask. Because I believe he was speaking honestly. He addressed an issue that no-one will speak about. They will talk about the economy, gun control, and immigration, but they never talk about how they are related. Obama was brave enough, or maybe stupid enough, to address it. And for this inadvertent courage, I have temporarily come down from my fence, and am happily standing a few feet away from it, in Obama's camp.
Presidential hopeful Barack Obama has managed to shoot himself in the foot during a pivotal point in his campaign. Currently the democratic party has no clear leader in the race to the presidency. And, with two important primaries coming up, Obama has made a verbal blunder that may cost him the nomination. His mistake not only exposes his lack of experience in politics, but also sheds new light on this poster boy for Change. Could Barack Obama be an elitist?
My answer, I sure hope so. To be honest, when it comes to this Democratic primary you can count my vote as "no preference." But when I read this story about Obama, I have to admit I was slightly swayed, in his favor. Why, you may ask. Because I believe he was speaking honestly. He addressed an issue that no-one will speak about. They will talk about the economy, gun control, and immigration, but they never talk about how they are related. Obama was brave enough, or maybe stupid enough, to address it. And for this inadvertent courage, I have temporarily come down from my fence, and am happily standing a few feet away from it, in Obama's camp.
Trees
Whenever I pick up a pencil to draw, I will almost always end up drawing a tree of some sort. I recently thought about this and found it to be odd. Why trees, I do like trees, but I like the sky too. Then I thought maybe it has something to do with the fact that I won an award from the city in Kindergarten for writing about and drawing trees. I am still not convinced that's the reason but it's a possibility.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Today at work I overheard my boss talking to his kids on the phone, it was horribly depressing. Not because it was sad, on the contrary, it was actually nice. He sounded so happy talking to them. It just made me sad, the man gets into work at 8:30 and leaves after 6, sometimes as late as 9, 10, or even 11. It just makes me think, what the hell are you doing man? Go home to your kids and your wife. Slaving away at your desk might pay for their things but it won't replace you.
I say this as someone who spends much of her time infuriated with the man, for a variety of crimes that only a manager could commit. But I can see the person he might be outside the work environment and I wonder what it is all for.
I say this as someone who spends much of her time infuriated with the man, for a variety of crimes that only a manager could commit. But I can see the person he might be outside the work environment and I wonder what it is all for.
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