Do you ever feel like your on the cusp of something enormous? All your energy is going towards balancing yourself on the tightrope of your life, and the only thing keeping you from relaxing and stepping off is making a decision. Do you want to step off on the left or the right? That is how I have been feeling lately. It is strange, usually I jump head first into whatever pops into my mind. But it's been different recently, I feel like I'm finally experiencing what so many of my friends have, fear of change. Fear of the unknown, fear that what comes next will be worst than what came before.
The bizarre aspect of this fear, for me, is that I simultaneously have a fear of being stagnant. I can't picture my life in a permanent state, I am constantly thinking of the next move, the next change, the next adventure. The problem then becomes, how can I breath change and simultaneously be afraid of it?
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