New Mantra

I will make my life happen.

"It's not surprising then they get bitter," he said. "They cling to guns or religion or antipathy to people who aren't like them or anti-immigrant sentiment or anti-trade sentiment as a way to explain their frustrations." - Barack Obama (Allison Keyes, NPR)

Presidential hopeful Barack Obama has managed to shoot himself in the foot during a pivotal point in his campaign. Currently the democratic party has no clear leader in the race to the presidency. And, with two important primaries coming up, Obama has made a verbal blunder that may cost him the nomination. His mistake not only exposes his lack of experience in politics, but also sheds new light on this poster boy for Change. Could Barack Obama be an elitist?

My answer, I sure hope so. To be honest, when it comes to this Democratic primary you can count my vote as "no preference." But when I read this story about Obama, I have to admit I was slightly swayed, in his favor. Why, you may ask. Because I believe he was speaking honestly. He addressed an issue that no-one will speak about. They will talk about the economy, gun control, and immigration, but they never talk about how they are related. Obama was brave enough, or maybe stupid enough, to address it. And for this inadvertent courage, I have temporarily come down from my fence, and am happily standing a few feet away from it, in Obama's camp.

Trees

Whenever I pick up a pencil to draw, I will almost always end up drawing a tree of some sort. I recently thought about this and found it to be odd. Why trees, I do like trees, but I like the sky too. Then I thought maybe it has something to do with the fact that I won an award from the city in Kindergarten for writing about and drawing trees. I am still not convinced that's the reason but it's a possibility.

I think he's bad ass.

Today at work I overheard my boss talking to his kids on the phone, it was horribly depressing. Not because it was sad, on the contrary, it was actually nice. He sounded so happy talking to them. It just made me sad, the man gets into work at 8:30 and leaves after 6, sometimes as late as 9, 10, or even 11. It just makes me think, what the hell are you doing man? Go home to your kids and your wife. Slaving away at your desk might pay for their things but it won't replace you.

I say this as someone who spends much of her time infuriated with the man, for a variety of crimes that only a manager could commit. But I can see the person he might be outside the work environment and I wonder what it is all for.

What is Next

Many nights, while I sit in front of the television and wonder what I am going to do with my life, I think that maybe I wasted my college years. I feel like I should have figured out what I was really good at and what I wanted to do with my life. Then I realize, I wouldn't go back and change anything. I enjoy everything I did in my college years. If I had done an internship at a publishing company, I never would have become an RA or worked at ResComp. I never would have learned as much as I did or made the friends I did. No, I don't regret the decisions I made in the past. I don't believe in regrets.

Without the past all I have is the present and future. My problem then becomes where is my life going? If my past decisions aren't the problem then I need to make the right decisions now and that's the hard part. I don't know what's next and that's a little terrifying.

I am starting to think that television has even more commercials than it used to. perhaps I could use my time wisely and actually time it...but then again someone who sits in front of their tv all night is too lazy for such things.