Becoming a nerd again

After about 3 years of mediocrity I am trying really hard to make myself the nerd I once was. The person who had to get an assignment done on time simply because it was assigned. The person that would stay up as late as it took to write a paper. The person that was eager to complete a task, any task well.

I think my entrance into the "real world," has made me an average person. And I say that in a very negative way. I say that in the same vein in which me and my honors classmates would refer to other students as "the regular kids." In the workplace, I am a regular kid. I no longer go above and beyond, unless it is to help others. Instead I am content to do C quality work. And the reason is because it just doesn't matter. In school working hard always let to something concrete, a good grade, which led to admittance into a good college, and which would eventually lead to a good job. I do believe I ended up with the good job, the problem is I hate it. Now the question is how do I find my niche and excel in it.