murmurings...editing needed

I walked in excited and confident. I was ready to get down to the business of important work, learning, doing. Spending late nights working on budgets and really leading, something I had always done. Little did I know I was in for a huge wake-up call. I was not worthy of any real work, no one cares about your education or potential. They just need you to help make them look good, and forget thoughts of your own career. As soon as you entered those doors, you leave dignity at the door and prepare for spending hours changing black slides into white, and then changing them back into black when Manager X changes his mind. All in a days work, or non-work. On the bright side I discovered www.thisamericanlife.com. A very inspirational and educational radio show that makes me feel far less hopeless.

I think the problem is that there is a huge difference between the change you experience between high school and college and the change you experience from college to the working world. Sure in both cases you work hard towards your eventual goal, however the outcome is more varied. In high school, earning good grades, leading on campus events and getting good SAT scores pretty much insured that you would get into a good college. It doesn't have to be ivy league or the best of the best, just a good school where you can get an education and more importantly have fun. In college you can work hard, gain work experience, and even do some volunteering on the side and all that can and will get you into a Fortune 500 company, a company that even falls on the list of "best places to work," according to Forbes. However, upon your arrival on said company you do not share meeting rooms with the best minds (as you did in college), you don't party on Thursday (work in the morning makes it rarely worthwhile), and more importantly you don't gain real responsibility or interesting work. You are not fit, instead the person who by some miracle of circumstance has not been fired, is ruling with an iron fist and you, you fall under hoping not to get squashed on a given day. Forget being involved in anything important, or even getting credit for you work. Nope you sit in a box all day staring at a computer and re-familiarizing yourself with Facebook (something college did not allow time for). Worse yet, your optimism drains from you like water in a sieve. You no longer believe that hard work pays off, the dozens of members of the work force who lack any intelligence or common sense have proven that to you. More importantly these are not mere minions in the workforce, they are managers, managers of people. These are individuals that have no business talking to people generally, let along managing them.

*** Done for now. Rantings may continue later.

It is very difficult for me to work on things that I feel have no future. Or when I feel that my efforts will eventually be discarded in favor of some new path.

Presidential Address

I sit here listening to the Presidential address. It is the first one I have listened to in quite some time as it is the first time a president I truly support is speaking. It seems like he's taking this opportunity to explain himself and his stimulus bill, which is good and reasonable, but I have to say the constant clapping in support of him is just silly. Let the man speak, this doesn't need to be a pep rally. I don't feel particularly peppy and I still have a job and am largely unaffected by the economic crisis.

I think what the point of this President is being a leader, giving the people of America hope. In the same way FDR kept American spirits up through his fireside chats, Obama feels it necessary to speak to Americans, through this address as well as several media outlets.

ramblings to possibly turn into stories

She says she only wants to be happy, but happiness is never on the agenda. Only pain, pain that she inflicts on herself over and over again, for him. For him. What a waste an absolute waste.

What they should tell you before you enter the world of business.

"Welcome everyone, please check your common sense and intelligence at the door and proceed with caution."

Perhaps they should use it to close college graduations world wide, its only fair.

White Hair

Today my manager and co-worker pointed out that I had a white hair growing out of my head. It should have been simply amusing, as it reflects a frustration we've all had at work. However, I have become slightly disturbed by it. I was just reading the other day that getting gray hairs in your 20's is normal, however since I had never seen one I thought I was still fairly safe. Now the tables have turned, can I expect to find a new one each day, how soon until my need to dye my hair will become a necessity to cover up stray grays? I should run out immediately and purchase myself some eye cream and a pricey anti-wrinkle cream, lest this single gray hair is a sign of an accelerating aging process the likes of which have not been seen since Dorian's portrait, wouldn't that be a tragedy.

I'm not the bright

I think I have realized something slightly disturbing about myself. I don't really know a whole lot, I know general things but details I have no concept. I couldn't remember for sure when WWI and WWII started and ended. I think that is something I should know.