It is very difficult for me to work on things that I feel have no future. Or when I feel that my efforts will eventually be discarded in favor of some new path.

Presidential Address

I sit here listening to the Presidential address. It is the first one I have listened to in quite some time as it is the first time a president I truly support is speaking. It seems like he's taking this opportunity to explain himself and his stimulus bill, which is good and reasonable, but I have to say the constant clapping in support of him is just silly. Let the man speak, this doesn't need to be a pep rally. I don't feel particularly peppy and I still have a job and am largely unaffected by the economic crisis.

I think what the point of this President is being a leader, giving the people of America hope. In the same way FDR kept American spirits up through his fireside chats, Obama feels it necessary to speak to Americans, through this address as well as several media outlets.

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She says she only wants to be happy, but happiness is never on the agenda. Only pain, pain that she inflicts on herself over and over again, for him. For him. What a waste an absolute waste.

What they should tell you before you enter the world of business.

"Welcome everyone, please check your common sense and intelligence at the door and proceed with caution."

Perhaps they should use it to close college graduations world wide, its only fair.

White Hair

Today my manager and co-worker pointed out that I had a white hair growing out of my head. It should have been simply amusing, as it reflects a frustration we've all had at work. However, I have become slightly disturbed by it. I was just reading the other day that getting gray hairs in your 20's is normal, however since I had never seen one I thought I was still fairly safe. Now the tables have turned, can I expect to find a new one each day, how soon until my need to dye my hair will become a necessity to cover up stray grays? I should run out immediately and purchase myself some eye cream and a pricey anti-wrinkle cream, lest this single gray hair is a sign of an accelerating aging process the likes of which have not been seen since Dorian's portrait, wouldn't that be a tragedy.

I'm not the bright

I think I have realized something slightly disturbing about myself. I don't really know a whole lot, I know general things but details I have no concept. I couldn't remember for sure when WWI and WWII started and ended. I think that is something I should know.

Mistakes

There are some mistakes, that are just simply mistakes. They are isolated, caused by a thoughtless moment or an oversight. These mistakes generally have consequences that rarely go beyond a single day, they may leave behind a bruised ego and a feeling of embarrassment, but overall they occur and time and life go on. But there are other mistakes, that are inexcusable, that change the path of your life. They steer you in a direction that you never thought you would go, leaving behind a path of disappointment and anger. Those mistakes are grave and if you make one, you can find your way back. Perhaps the Gods will react favorably to the fourth and fifth mistakes as well. But there is a point, when all your mistakes culminate into a life, and that life is not the one you thought you would lead or the life you wanted to have. It simply becomes a life of regrets.