Mistakes

There are some mistakes, that are just simply mistakes. They are isolated, caused by a thoughtless moment or an oversight. These mistakes generally have consequences that rarely go beyond a single day, they may leave behind a bruised ego and a feeling of embarrassment, but overall they occur and time and life go on. But there are other mistakes, that are inexcusable, that change the path of your life. They steer you in a direction that you never thought you would go, leaving behind a path of disappointment and anger. Those mistakes are grave and if you make one, you can find your way back. Perhaps the Gods will react favorably to the fourth and fifth mistakes as well. But there is a point, when all your mistakes culminate into a life, and that life is not the one you thought you would lead or the life you wanted to have. It simply becomes a life of regrets.

Scardy Cat

I am finally getting out, getting out of a job I sometimes hate so intensely that I can't bring myself to get up in the morning. The new job is great, on the outside. Great manager, opportunity to work from home, everything that I need in my life right now. But I'm terrified. Terrified that another year of office life will kill me, that I with everything else being perfect I will stay hate my job. Then what do I do, I can't blame it on my horrible manager, or my lack of exciting work. Then the problem becomes me. What do I do then?

Better Myself

I have decided to eliminate "sucks" and "huh" from my vocabulary. They are awful sounding words and I would do better to keep them from coming out of my mouth. We will see how that goes.

Airports

When your in a long distance relationship, airports are probably the saddest place in the world. And of all of them LAX is the worst. The noise, the crowds, all culminate to make it the picture of chaos. Chaos that is nothing more than annoying when you are trying to get home without interacting with anyone else.

The Cure - Mint Car

Whenever I hear the beginning of this song I always feel happy. It reminds me of stepping out of my door in Berkeley, on my way to class on a sunny day. It always added a little bounce in my step and now it always reminds me of Berkeley, the best of Berkeley. They days when the sun was shining bright, the view of San Francisco was crystal clear, and Memorial Glade was filled with sun bathers and people playing ultimate Frisbee.


"Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn't think it could
Do it some more?
I know we should!!!
Say it will always be like this
The two of us together
It will always be like this
Forever and ever and ever..."
* The Cure - Mint Car

On Well, Whatever, Nevermind

I hope when I grow up and have children, specifically teenagers, I remember the exquisite beauty of teen anxt. The feeling that your entire life is defined by what happens in the small radius of your existence. It's an odd time of I don't care and I care so much it hurts.